the letter i shouldn’t write, that you’ll never read.

dear xxxx,

we haven’t spoken in seven years. by this point, i shouldn’t even be writing anything to you. there is no point in bringing up the past and in the end, nothing i will say will accomplish anything. i don’t know what kind of outcome i would want anyway. but it’s been a long time and i find that every few months i get the urge to write to you and make sure you’re doing okay. are you?

i look online to find little hints about your life when the letter-writing-urge pops in my head. i hope you’re still writing and making music. have you made the 2nd album of the year? i’m a little surprised you haven’t moved out of state yet. how many cats does your mom have?

i’ve gotten most of my life figured out now; a pretty big difference from the last time you knew me. i have a counselor, i’ve been on medication since 2011, i’ve been diagnosed and since then i’ve had a chance to break down and analyze who i used to be. my back and forth moods, the depression and insecurity, lack of communication, lack of emotions and empathy, the cheating and lying. i wonder what would have happened to us if i had gotten help from the start.

i’m sorry for all the shit i put you through and how i could never own up to any of my mistakes. i didn’t know what i was doing until just a couple years ago and it’s all too late to reach out and make amends, hence this letter for you that you will never read. but i need to get this out of my head. the chance of us ever speaking again is slim; becoming friends, even slimmer i’m sure. i don’t think that was ever possible for us no matter how hard we tried. but i really do hope you are well, and that you are where you want to be in life.

i will always appreciate you and what we had.

"we were young and we were dumb, we were numb but in love."

briealmakesthings

New Endometriosis Pamphlet ~

briealmakesthings:

Okay so March is Endometriosis Awareness Month, and in my search for printable materials I found literally nothing that was region-free, LGBT* friendly (being nonbinary myself I can assure you this is the hardest part), and contained information that could be sourced. So I decided to change that!

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cest-la-fuckinvie

cest-la-fuckinvie:

Could all the girls with endometriosis please message me about the symptoms you all have? feeling a bit helpless with all the pain and being undiagnosed :(

I can’t seem to message you so i will just reblog and hope you see this.

my symptoms have been really bad cramps leading up to and during my period. These basically started when I was 13 and have gone on until I was in my 20s. Thats when I got sharp pains, the worst forcing me to stay in bed hopped up on pain killers.

I have a really sensitive stomach and digestive issues sometimes go hand in hand with endo. Sex can be painful, both during and after. Some women have really heavy bleeding and irregular periods (when I’m not on BC, mine are irregular but light).

Other symptoms are pain going to the bathroom, lower back and leg pain, fatigue, depression, anxiety.. It’s all different to each woman. I hope you can see a Dr who understands what you’re going through. You (and anyone else reading this) is more than welcome to message me with any more questions about endo or my personal experience with it.

empartridge
empartridge:

if you keep up with me on twitter you might be aware that my tiny smelly best friend, Orwell, isn’t doing so well. I won’t go in to gory details, but he’s kind of rough. his recent emergency vet visit was a big hit to my wallet, and if things get worse I don’t want to be stuck in a place where I can’t pay for a follow-up, more medicine, etc.I’m deciding to take a few small-scale digital (or traditional and scanned) commissions. I have some big projects on the go as well as few older commissions to finish, so turnaround will probably be about a week to two weeks. I’m definitely not opposed to drawing you hella cute stuff for valentines day, just be sure to specify if that’s what it’s for so it gets to you in time. if you’d like some examples, check out this, this, this, or this. if you’re interested, send an email to lyle.partridge at gmail. I also have a donate button up on my mount pleasant site. anything helps, especially reblogs.thanks guys.

empartridge:

if you keep up with me on twitter you might be aware that my tiny smelly best friend, Orwell, isn’t doing so well. I won’t go in to gory details, but he’s kind of rough. his recent emergency vet visit was a big hit to my wallet, and if things get worse I don’t want to be stuck in a place where I can’t pay for a follow-up, more medicine, etc.

I’m deciding to take a few small-scale digital (or traditional and scanned) commissions. I have some big projects on the go as well as few older commissions to finish, so turnaround will probably be about a week to two weeks. I’m definitely not opposed to drawing you hella cute stuff for valentines day, just be sure to specify if that’s what it’s for so it gets to you in time.
if you’d like some examples, check out this, this, this, or this. if you’re interested, send an email to lyle.partridge at gmail. I also have a donate button up on my mount pleasant site.

anything helps, especially reblogs.
thanks guys.

80 day weight loss challenge: day 16

16. Which part of your body do you wish to change the most and why?

this is a toss up. can i pick two? i’m going to pick two and not because i hate how i look, just that there are two things i’ve aaaaalways wanted to change.

i want my thighs to not touch! even at my slimmest, that didn’t happen so i don’t think it’s possible. but that’d be pretty cool. also my stomach does this weird thing where it’s like someone stuck a butt implant there. it’s this little pudge bump that shrinks when i lose weight but never goes away. i used to think the indent was from wearing my pants too high when i was a kid and it made one half of my torso separate from the other half and so it’s like.. flat, indent, bump, but i can’t imagine my theory is anywhere near correct. i don’t even know if you can picture what i’m talking about but i want my stomach to be one flat or slightly sticking out entity. go away, poodgy bump.